i haven't stopped writing although i may have kinda stopped touching personal issues in here. but i promise to keep updating in a more professional level HERE.
Posted by toughcookie | Thursday, January 15, 2009
Since little jj started eating a few days back, I suddenly could see her more active, more cheeky and more “cunning”… “cunning” as in it always look like she has something planned in her head once she's able to reach stuff… she'd thoroughly scan everything on a table or a room and her eyes would wander quickly - right to left, looking hard as if planning for her next move next time when she's ready. That “cunning” look is always seen when she’d look at my stuff on my vanity table, always. I told the one last night that I might have to transfer all those stuff – moisturiser, perfumes, lipsticks, etc. all to the toilet. At least I know the case in our bathroom is placed higher.
Little jj also squirms so much when I sit her on me with her back against my tummy. She’d wiggle her way so that her head rests on my thighs. Then, she’d look up and have her hands reach out to my face where she’d grab my chin or put her hand into my mouth and grabs on to my lower lip. In fact, she’d grab almost everything she could now… even down to my nursing bra strap. Ouch. While nursing she’d grab the strap with one hand and let it go *piakk*. Once she's laid on my lap and gets bored, she'd put her hands out reaching for me, asking me to pick her up and carry her. If I don't carry her and just sit her on me, the gestures would repeat and she'd let out that frustrated whine. Gosh... she's just so cute even when she does that hehe.
Since she has started eating, she has also refused to be left on her own. She can’t even sit in her favourite chair for more than 10 minutes on average and she’d start giving me this sound where it’s a usual sound she’d make when she’s calling for attention. She’d look up at me and hold both hands out, asking me to pick her up.
Now, most people would tell me to just let her be so as to not spoil her. Although I did that before with the little munchkin, I find it harder to do it to little jj now. I dunno… is it because I’m more motherly? Or simply because I was busier then… I had to teach my baby to play on his own. Now, I am a housewife and I usually do serious work at night when the one’s home. In the morning, I could still do work but I’d give her as much attention as well. I mean, that’s the reason for me to stay home, right? If I'd want to let her on her own, then what is the purpose of me staying home… I might as well go back to working at an office, right?
But yes, it makes it difficult for me to even take my bath unlike previously. So I would just let her cry if she chooses to, while I rush for a quick shower in the morning and the late afternoon after I freshen her up.
Like right now while I’m typing, I had to hold her in my arms and type with just one hand. She was fine and dandy playing with her fish and starfish and octopus all at her play gym but after awhile she’ll realise I am not with her and she’ll start that special “cry” where it won’t stop until I pick her up. Trust me, we have tried leaving her as she is when she cried last night but it didn’t work. She just won’t stop. Smart, eh? Ngada, as what I’d call her especially when she’ll show that victorious face when papa holds her tight. Heh.
Then, there is that putting-things-in-the-mouth gesture... yesterday while I was browsing thru the celcom leaflet the one got in his mailer, she looked at it so intensely that I thought I ought to share the information with her, just like I usually do when reading a book to her. Instead of looking, she quickly grabbed the leaflet and I thought it was good since she's showing interest and that I can let her play with the leaflet by herself. Ahhh... but in less than 2 minutes before I was sure I could leave her on her own, she put the leaflet into her mouth and that was it. End of giving her anything but her trusted Mr Giraffe or Mr Turtle.
Of course, I quickly forgot that part when she was seeking for attention in the living room while I was doing chores back in the kitchen. I took her bumbo seat and place her in it so that she can watch me do work in the kitchen. She took interest at the box of Milkmaid Tea on our breakfast table and I handed it to her so that she gets occupied and not get bored too soon. As soon as I knew it, she was giving me that weird facial gestures since the box didn't taste that good in her mouth. Hmmm... but that would be a good advertisement for Milkmaid Tea, though, if I was able to capture it on my N82 hehe...
I’m kinda scared at that prospect when she’ll be able to move around on her own. I can sense that she’ll be quite a handful to manage. As it is now, she leaves me feeling tired. Previously, she could just sleep while being fed or fall asleep right after feeding. These days, she’ll look at me after a feed, expecting me to carry her around or she’ll play with her hands or she’ll roll on her side facing me and hold out one hand and start scratching my hand, or my tummy or whatever skin on my body she could get her hand on.
She’ll poke my mouth and grab my cheek and when she gets hungry again, she’d just stare at that specific area, expecting me to understand, pull down whatever that’s covering it and feed her.
I used to be able to just lay next to her until she sleeps or at least sing her her favourite tune, Rock a-bye baby. Nope. They don't work anymore. She's simply a pwincesh just like the one and I joked about while she was still in me ;P
i am born a pwincesh. I don't have jesters... but look at
the entertainers I have to entertain me when I'm bored.
everybody wants to make me happy ;P
Gosh. It’s really an experience. And I wonder when she’ll start to sleep thru the night.